Saturday, August 20, 2011

Mixed Emotions

Dear Blogger Friends,

I write this with mixed emotions yet I wanted to let you know that I have started on a journey. Not an ending in my belief but the *NEXT* step in life. You see, my Mother is dying. Her kidney disease has finally taken claim on her. I need to remind myself that this is HER decision in HER way. She decided NOT to have dialysis and my siblings and I *knew* the day would arrive when Hospice would became a part of Mom's life and death.

So as you read this, we are travelling to Michigan to say goodbye to Mom. More for me than for her (or anyone else) as Mom has withdrawn into herself. One foot in the living world and one foot in The Other. For a time, she will know I am there but will not remember my visit the next day.

My grieving has begun and I must make this Goodbye Trip.

Cheers to you, Mom!

photo by SIL:J Christmas 2010

Thank You Blogger Friends for listening/reading along with your comfort and caring. I have scheduled a few posts to appear while I am away. Forgive any wonky-ness that may appear as I am not able to edit the posts once they do indeed post. :)

We will be back on the 23rd~WIP Wednesday~as DS needs to return to work and DD's school countdown is on.


11 comments:

Chris Daly said...

Oh Pat, I'm so sorry to hear the news. Sending you love and prayers.

NeverBored said...

I've walked a mile in your shoes and know the courage it takes and the sadness it involves. You are in my prayers at this difficult time for you and your family.

Karen said...

Pat, so sorry to hear your news. However, your Mom will be at peace knowing she did it "her way". May the Lord hold her in the palm of his hand.

Lynne in Hawaii said...

Our prayers will be with you and your Mom.

Alycia said...

Oh Sweetie, our hugs and prayers are with you..

JoAnne said...

Will be praying for you Pat. Hospice has been called in for my sister who's kidneys are failing from diabetes. We'll be going to NC soon for a goodbye visit so I understand where you are. Love you.

Nancy said...

I am so sorry...

Linda_J said...

I am sorry that your mom is having to go thru this. We always think and hope that we will have more time with your loved ones. Doesn't make it any easier when the time comes to say goodbye but we FABs are thinking of you and your family at this time. Love you.

Infinity Quilter/Knitter said...

So sorry to hear about your mom. Know that I'm thinking about you and praying for you and your family.

Mama Spark said...

Oh Pat, I am so sorry. There are not enough words to comfort but know I am thinking about you and your family and keeping you in prayers too! BIG HUGS to you and your family!

Stephanie D. said...

Am just catching up and read this, Pat. I'm so sorry and send hugs your way. I've heard her route is an easy way to go, so hope that's some comfort for you. Bless your heart.